These days it’s commonplace to do everything online, from designing the layout of your kitchen to locating a stranger prepared to kill and eat you for mutual sexual gratification.

hi. i'm currently a college/uni student in america. part-time complainer, full-time eldritch monstrosity. i seem to get along best with women with NPD and men with abandonment issues. i don't really know how to make friends, special thanks to my agoraphobia having a vice grip on my soul since 2015. i started this site in 2018, but revamping it slowly now that i'm back. going through my old pages is adorable, i wish there were other ways of this sort of personal self-expression. everyone on instagram and twitter and tumblr are faceless and discord is infested with people who would stab each another if given the opportunity.

i've always been curious about the circles people choose to gravitate toward: the art they enjoy, music they listen to, hobbies they invest in. tumblr was a great example of a carefully cultivated environment: an endless feed of media that expands upon your existing interests depending on who you follow. expand your scope and more diverse stuff comes your way.

above all, i'm interested in the mentalities people adhere to. their outlook on life, how they structure their day-to-day and reflect about their past. i've had a rather contentious relationship with both, and it's refreshing to see some different approaches.

a .txt file used to occupy my thoughts, but it was too 2D to be a helpful reference. neocities allows me to catalog my thoughts in a concise manner and include pictures. Best part is I feel compelled to distill down my emotions into something succinct, a plate of palpable regurgitations.

i write about what i like, and i try not to compartmentalize my thoughts. this site is a good exercise for me to have my interests laid out and periodically updated. i was the kinda kid to bring her favorite toys everywhere. that mentality has stuck with me i guess. hopefully you'll find some personal intersections in my writings. sorry if you're a neo-nazi or something.

questions? suggestions? death threats? take at least 47 capfuls of nyquil and you'll find me.

written: june 24th, 2023

site created: july 8th, 2018

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interests

  • i will add soon

    • anime

  • eden of the east
  • kakuriyo (they did you so dirty)
  • perfect blue
  • given (my first bl)
  • blue spring ride
  • ghibli movies overall
  • flying witch
  • darwins game
  • citrus
  • nana
  • cory in the house
  • cardcaptor sakura
  • puella magi madoka magica
  • anohana
  • bananya
  • blend-s
  • a certain magical index
  • 22/7
  • the case files of jeweler richard
  • oddtaxi
  • rilakkuma and kaoru
  • nobunaga concerto
  • oda cinnamon nobunaga
  • fire force
  • black clover
  • yamishibai (my soulmate anime)
  • osomatsu san
  • precure
  • a lull in the sea
  • hanasaku iroha
  • convenience store boy friends

    • games

  • pokemon (mainly pokemon x)
  • far cry 4-6
  • far cry primal
  • mario kart
  • scribblenauts
  • cyberpunk 2077
  • gta 5 (not really. i failed the tutorial.)
  • rdr2 (online mode. fuck story mode.)
  • mortal kombat (i had a crush on nightwolf)
  • roblox (the horror games are elite)
  • cooking mama (the mobile ver. bc fuck nintendo)
  • taiko no tatsujin (on my gigantic ipad)
  • sumikko gurashi farm
  • fran bow
  • little misfortune
  • animal crossing new leaf + new horizons
  • the sims 4 (i have 1TB of cc amassed over 6 years.)
  • tomodachi life + miitopia
  • yo-kai watch
  • nintendogs

    • tv shows

  • american horror story (s3-9 best)
  • abbott elementary
  • pingu
  • mio mau
  • a black lady sketch show
  • sharp objects
  • you
  • bad girls club
  • why women kill
  • inside job
  • adventure time
  • the facts of life
  • practically every 2000s & early 2010s disney, cartoon network, and nickelodeon show

    • music

  • the pillows
  • deftones
  • mitski (female puberty 0, mitski 1)
  • childish gambino (i need him singing at my wedding)
  • tame impala
  • lamp
  • herb alpert
  • summrs (ONLY ONE SONG OK)
  • mass of the fermenting dregs
  • bladee
  • ecco2k
  • thaiboy digital
  • sewerslvt (can you spot the pattern here)
  • celia cruz (supposedly died the same day i was conceived)
  • joão gilberto
  • amy winehouse
  • corinne bailey rae
  • natalia lafourcade
  • tyler the creator
  • cults
  • ethel cain
  • yeat (seen him live 8 times, top 0.001% listener)
  • pastel ghost
  • foo fighters
  • grimes
  • sleeping w sirens
  • pierce the veil
  • asking alexandria
  • city morgue
  • zillakami
  • fleetwood mac
  • sza
  • yo la tengo
  • rina sawayama
  • aoa
  • aoba ichiko
  • surrija
  • mon laferte
  • roar
  • ryusenkei
  • minuano
  • liana flores
  • kikuchi momoko
  • laufey (reminds me of how lonely i truly am)
  • future
  • pequeno cidadão
  • kendrick lamar
  • tanuki
  • ghost
  • dean

    • manga & books

  • [comedy] よふかしのうた call of the night
  • [comedy] ピーチガールNEXT peach girl next
  • [fantasy] シュガシュガルーン sugar sugar rune
  • [horror] ~デッドチューブ~ deadtube
  • [dystopian fiction] only ever yours
  • [satire] yellowface
  • [mystery] cain's jawbone
  • [dystopian fiction] tender is the flesh
  • [thriller] you
  • [absurdist fiction] y/n
  • [horror] you've lost a lot of blood
  • [thriller] sharp objects
  • [thriller] gone girl
  • a very special manga that i will never share Ever

    • movie

  • Spirited Away
  • Us
  • Bad Times at the El Royale
  • The Royal Tenenbaums
  • Kill Bill
  • Ratatouille
  • The Menu
  • Everything Everywhere All At Once
  • Night at the Museum

    color

  • lavender, jadeite, cashmere

    • food

  • kamuy ohaw, salsa verde tamales de pollo, cheese pizza from papa johns, boneless buffalo wings, cinnamon rolls, mcdonalds overall

    drink

  • mcdonald's sprite, horchata, hot chocolate, apple cider

    drug

  • clozapine, depo-provera

    bugs

  • black garden ant

    • bird

  • shoebill stork

    • car

  • a horse
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    interior/furniture

    Braun Atelier Mainboard Terminal noguchi table Rogan Gregory Sculptural Coffee Table lensvelt AVL Cloudtable Isokon Penguin Donkey Papasan Wicker chair Oo table lamp White Akabeko Haniwa Figure tripod chawan Insect Display

    Clothing

    Kapital Tri-P Kapital Kamakura Blouson Kapital Ringcoat Kapital Dogis Fleece French Extreme Orient pants reproduction
  • Red Wing Harvester Asics Gel Yeti Seiko SCVS013 Seiko 6117-8000 Nodus Sector GMT Nomos Tangente Ruthenium Datum Sinn 556i Mother of Pearl

    books

    books photobooks

    misc

    Sweet osmanthus DT1990 Moondrop Venus Senko Nendoroid FREEing Reimu 1/4 figure Sojiro's Treasure set anko rubber strap

    cameras

    Canon Powershot Zoom Monocular?
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    • 06/24/2023

  • scan photobooks
  • build pc on ppp
  • attempt to relearn loom weaving
  • learn to embroider and sew
  • attend russian & spanish lessons
  • learn how to build furniture
  • learn how to fix toilets & sinks
  • call bank!!!
  • attempt to see friends & take pics
  • add new june recipes
  • recreate cursed images
  • recreate childhood photos
  • diy lego sets?
  • diy notebook?
  • play far cry 3
  • take a pottery class
  • actually learn procreate tools
  • teach oré like everything lol
  • make wishlist/registry for school
  • gather & submit work for poetry & creative fic workshops
  • learn how to shuffle a deck
  • learn 3d illustration
  • make some sims 4 cc with blender & s4studio
  • stonecarving/woodcarving
  • paper mache
  • learn to make jewelry
  • LIST & SELL SQUISHMALLOWS!!!!
  • learn rugmaking
  • ceramics
  • print movie posters
  • bucket list
  • make recipe book

    go

  • zhangjiajie, china
  • chamonix, france
  • hell
  • delaware water gap
  • havana, cuba
  • royal ballet academy, london
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